The more I Prayed, the more I Lost

The more I Prayed, the more I Lost

Many people pray with the intention of asking for something. In fact, Jesus Himself said, "Ask, and it shall be given to you..." (Matthew 7:7). So, naturally, we often enter the prayer room with requests—seeking blessings, guidance, or solutions to our problems.

Even non-christians do the same in their own way—turning to idols, to strike 4D, gain material wealth, healing, or even praying for their children to achieve better academic results.

But this raises an important question:

What do I truly gain from regularly praying to God?

Nowadays, I don’t seem to remember much of what I gained—but I can clearly say that I lost.

I lost the burden of guilt, knowing that God genuinely forgives sins.

I lost envy and jealousy toward my schoolmates who are still thriving in business or making big money in the corporate world.

I lost my ego—the desire to own a bigger car, a better house, or to prove my worth through material success.

I lost the anger I once carried before stepping into prayer.

I lost greed—the constant craving for more wealth and possessions.

I lost depression, a struggle I was prone to not too long ago.

I lost insecurity, now that I trust everything is in God’s hands.

But most of all, I lost the fear of death—because I know my Savior has gone before me, preparing a place for me in the Father’s house, where I will live for eternity.

Looking back, I realize that everything I lost through prayer was never meant to define me. Letting go of guilt, envy, ego, greed, and fear didn’t leave me empty—it freed me.

After all, “What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world, but loses his soul?” (Mark 8:36)